Grief

I am mourning who I used to be. Who I could become, me in my prime.

Tears or Rain

Tears or Rain to soothe my pain. water drops that fall, they don’t fall in vain.

Dear Unconditional Love,

Sometimes I want to give up. But, when I try, you’re always there. You never go away. I feel you, I hear you, pulsating underneath, wanting to remain against all odds, the constant pain.

50/50

You had all the reasons to trust me blindly, however you chose to betray me, hurt me, break my spirit in irreparable ways. I had all the reasons not to trust you, however I chose to give you chances and love you unconditionally.

Winter Sun

Winter Sun is blinding. White, blade cold light. Surreal.

Gifted: Emotionally Intense or Immature?

It's a curse and the biggest blessing. When you feel everything so deeply and you think that everyone else is the same but then you realise they're not, there are times when you question yourself. Specially when those in the lower frequencies (most of people in the world, aka asleep ones) start projecting their insecurities and lack of self-authenticity at you and make you feel 'different'. So you try to fit in pretending you don't feel, which sucks/hurts even more. What's really going on here is that most people NUMB their feelings, ignore them, or shut them down due to various reasons (it's not a case that they don't feel) and in return shame those who do express their feelings, because they aren't strong enough to open themselves, they ridicule those who do. This is society for you. It's been normalised that 'to feel' is a sign of weakness. Fuck that! What it means is that you're vulnerable when you feel, therefore there is FEAR of feeling (and expressing it) because it can often be synonym of suffering. Well, let me tell you: If you don't suffer you don't thrive, grow, heal, love, live! Life comes with everything: pain and pleasure. Digest and assume that. Simply.